I have not been intimate with many women but from my limited experiences and from what I have been able to observe in the world, in many different countries, under many different circumstances, I am forced conclude the following thing. I cannot be sure how accurate it is and there are many other factors of course but there seem to be some prevailing truths which are undeniable and which are pointing in one direction.
I like so many other men have been wondering how is it possible that so many women fall for the wrong guy kind of guy. Why is it that dictators, tyrants, gangsters, drug addicts who distribute drugs and engage in crime and hurt other people, your local thieves and small time crooks and business owners who would do anything they can get away with in order to make a dollar regardless what it does to the neighbourhood or their family or anyone else, how can all of them attract women. Don’t women see what they are. Yes women see what they are and they know what they are and no unlike what most men think women are not attracted to their dangerous nature or to their crimes. Women don’t care about what they do, who they hurt (other people, nature, environment), or why they do it. They don’t have time to care about this because they focus on receiving the men’s affection and don’t care what they do as long they provide that affection. Women don’t care about what men do and will support them in anything, war, crimes, in fact, often they will ignore the fact that their men are cheating on them as long as they feel that they are getting more of that man and from that man than the other woman, as long as their men give them the attention they want they don’t care. Women are attracted only to your ability to give them attention and spoil them. They don’t care if you are caring, considerate, kind, if you care about the world or if you care about people. Unless you are willing to give her the attention she wants, the way she wants it, when she wants it, it does not matter who you are, how decent you are as an individual, she will not be attracted to your decency, your kindness or anything you have, anything you have achieved, anything that is in your heart. They cannot be happy until they know that your existence is dependant on them or strongly influenced by them and not by something else, for example not by something that exists inside of you. You better learn to pretend that they are that important which is what most men do and which is why as we are learning now thanks to the internet, mobile phone and other technology, most men cheat and have multiple women, multiple families, shower them with gifts, and make them feel important, from everyday losers to wealthy diplomats, politicians, business owners, executives.
We are now learning that his has been happening for years, many of them having multiple families in different countries. As long you tell her you are cutting your trip short to see her or that she is the most important thing that is all that matters, how well you balance the rest of your life around your lies to her depends on how could you are at lying to other people and manipulating people. Or you need to be a natural liar and able to do it all without learning this, which is what I had to learn. If on the other hand you do not want to lie and manipulate then you are screwed. Once again the Wachowski brothers who created Matrix nailed it when they had machines tell us that they are more human than us. They said to us you are parisites. You use up one environment or person and move on to the next. If people see no use in you for their own needs and cannot make themselves valued through you or cannot make themselves feel important through you, you can be the most decent human being in the world, women don’t care. They don’t care who you are, what you are, wjhat you want. They have to use your traits, who you are, to make themselves feel important, if that does not happen you are no longer required. It becomes obvious then why there is so little love in this world. Anybody else can become that person. Anybody can replace you. What is sex. In and out. Anybody can do that. What is love. That strange mythical feeling and notion. Nothing. They don’t want you around because you are in the way preventing them from using somebody else being in order to make themselves feel valued.
What happned to love being the unique feeling. Like no other. A feeling of euphoria, aphrodisiac. One spirit in two bodies. Well I am told one is not allowed to think or love of feel love. Love is to be shown. It is an action. To be given to be received. It is not a romance I am told. Those things are not real I am told. It is only about what we can give to each other. It is not about what we feel. It is not about the feeling we share. Love is scratch my back when itchy or get the fuck out of here because there are others who will and who can do it better and I have to look for them. Because that is love. Because that is love I am told. That is more important. It is more important to shower with gifet and be there and tell lies than and never feeling anything on the inside because that after all is showing love. But showing what. There is nothing on the inside. Nothing to show. Nothing to feel. When you feel something, you don’t need to be reassured of it because you know it is there. You don’t need to love your fingers do you. You don’t need to buy them gifts to show them how much you love them. They are there with you. They are part of you. We don’t really believe in love. We don’t feel its magic. Is it any wonder than why we have no sense of empathy. Is it any wonder why we use our intellect to construct weapons which kill, torture, humiliate, massacre and demean other human beings. No other being in the galaxy kills for pleasure, lies for pleasure, cheats for pleasure, hurts other people for pleasure. We use our intellect to hurt the environment, other people, the universe. We are the only species that does this. We know of no love of any kind. We don’t know how to love ourselves or how to love others. In fact we are so afraid of love that we find it impossible in the one thing that we have and that sets apart from all the other animals and from the rest of the universe. We are afraid to believe in the idea of love and that other human being can love us. In intimate relationship and professional relationships and international relationships. As long as the hearst are closed and we do not share humanity there is nothing that we can do prove our love to each other. No legal document, not marriage, no peace treaty, no gift which is a sign of sincerity, no peace keeping organization, idea or book, will give us what is already within us but we are too afraid to accept because the risk would be too great. The risk is us. Giving ourselves away. Submitting ourselves to somebody else’s hands. Other gifts and activities and peace treats and weapons of peace and trust and agreement and fail in comparison once you share the heart and experience the love. But this is too hard I am told. Impossible to achieve in love and in business.
People think that they are too important and their time too important to be wasted on such activities. Without realizing that this is the most important thing of all. They want results and they want them now. They don’t care how they get them, where are they from, or who is giving them. And that is why the good guys finish last. And I cannot tell small lies, white lies, or any kind of lie. To me the difference between any kind of lie, manipulation and truth is like the difference between galaxies. The concept of lying does not enter my reality. And people need small pleasant lies to keep them in their comfort zone. People who do not believe in anything, love truth, destiny, gift, can do anything to achieve any end result they are seeking fro themselves. There are no real principles for them to follow. No principles which make it impossible to do certain things. Anything goes because they don’t believe in anything. So there is nothing to prevent from saying wait. This is something which is not acceptable under any circumstance. End of story. There is nothing to negotiate. This is not a human thing to do. They can align with anybody to get whatever they can. But I will not stop living the truth. I will not stop being the truth. I will not stop being love. Because our decisions create our reality. And I will not live in a false reality and I will not cerate a false reality for myself or for others regardless of how comfortable it might be.